Ahhhh. Ever since then, I've been focusing more on my negative thoughts.
Maybe cause I don't want to go tomorrow.
It feels so awkward being with those people.
And it doesn't make it any easier when they all bunch together in their classes.
At least Pei Ting is in the same CC class as me.
Gabby will be happy. :D
I've seen a few familiar faces. They were all from EU.
But I don't really know them. And I very much prefer to be with my class.
The constant fear is of not knowing anyone.
It's like I'm wide in the open, susceptible to attack - mockery and pity.
This comfort zone thing? Yeah. I'm living in it.
What I'm experiencing right now is the process of building a wall around myself in the effort to make a comfort zone in a totally uncomfortable place.
Oh. My. God.
I see some people who're really nice, like Eleanor who reminds me of someone else. Actually, all those from Pei Ting's class are really nice people. (Referring to the girls)
But still, I just don't fit in with them.
It was a shitty idea to change CC.
What if I become like Laura Wingfield and I can't take the heat?
Here's what I'm thinking right now :
Screw it.
And if they want the positive thought :
I must. Cause I must improve.
I was damn pissed off today.
I don't understand why people can waste their time whining that they didn't do this or that, when they should spend their time doing this or that.
Well, what really ticked me off the most was that you kept giving yourself the excuse.
"I didn't know."
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I can't stand the way you make lame excuses for yourself.
Seriously. I wanted to scream at you so badly just now.
FYI, I didn't believe a word of what you said.
This isn't the first time it's happened.
Each time you defend yourself, it's harder for me to control myself.
I wanted to slap you so much just now.
You're one of the few who make my blood boil and overflow.
Most of the time I just ignore, and joke around.
But when you make me mad, I really get mad.
It's no laughing matter any more.
I want to treat you as a friend.
But when you do that, I really just want to slap you.
When I'm pissed off, everything is irritating to me.
Especially you.
Ling's idea. :D
A little communist, but still nice. ;D
I love you, Ling! :D
As learnt from this week's lesson, 3 = Me.
So 8039 isn't 8039 without ME.
PRAISE MEH FOR IT IS MY IDEA.
Jk. ;x Haha.And for Charlotte, if you happen to read my blog again,
I would love anything that
you and Zach design together.
So please do! :D
